December Part 1 – It’s Complicated

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Hey everyone! I have been waiting for an array of tests to come back before I wrote again. Annnnd… I am still waiting on even more blood work to come back. I figured I would check in in the meantime!

It has been a pretty frustrating month to say the least. I feel like I am falling apart and am growing really impatient trying to find out all the answers.

I finally did the SIBO test and it came out negative. I ended up doing a poo test which I hate and was holding off on.

There was a bacteria, as well as candida and another fungus, so that would explain the bloatedness, inability to go to the bathroom (even though I have doubled the dose of magnesium citrate).

The neat thing about the test is that it showed what treatments were most beneficial to me, and ones that I am resistant to.

I am actually resistant to Diflucan, which I have been taking forever. The bad news is the things that are supposed to work for me I have been taking for months and nada. I guess it will take time and I will continue on with a clean diet and hope that it all begins to resolve.

The sleep has been absolutely ridiculous. I managed to be okay to make it to a friend’s baby shower but I absolutely need to have a few hours nap to go anywhere or it just isn’t happening. I have had to nap to do anything, I have napped at work, and even planning on going to my sister in law’s for Thanksgiving, I napped before we left, the half hour drive, and when I was there I had a quick snooze before dinner, and as soon as I got home.

I have been missing out on things like an invite to watch a football game, going out to dinner, and visiting friends. I am a pretty social person, even though I am a bit socially awkward, and to not be able to get out much is a big bummer. It really truly sucks.

During my first appointment since I last wrote with Dr. Steve (I must be a VIP patient by now LOL) , he did a little check out and low and behold I had an ear infection.

There was actually some blood coming out of my right ear. It doesn’t seem to bother me and was kind of new news to me.

He is a blood work kind of guy, which I love, so I had a full list of tests to get done. I didn’t have to get as many tubes drawn as anticipated, a lot of the tests could go in the same vial. I also got a Minion band-aid. Win!

With those blood tests, it showed my hormones are way off. The biggest issue is Progesterone being extremely low. I was surprised at this, even though I knew something was off, as I have progesterone injections and use progesterone cream. Hmm.

There was a test that was an AHA! moment. It is called immune complexes, and another that shows extremely better white blood cell information than your basic panel.

It showed that I had off the charts inflammation, and my body is indeed attacking itself.  The problem is, we aren’t positive as to why and what.

As a side note that I can’t figure out where to copy and paste it (brain fart), no one wants to have something bad on their tests. I will admit though I was happy as a pig in shit that something showed up. Finally. I was beginning to feel like I am friggin crazy, as I am sick. Very sick and nothing was showing up. These tests

The biggest possibility we are looking into is vasculitis of the brain. It is very rare, and my spellcheck even doesn’t recognize the disease hahaha. Joy. We are looking into an angiogram of the brain to confirm this guess, and trying to get as much information gathered as possible for insurance to cover IVIG treatment which could be really beneficial to me.

Another option we discussed was going on prednisone. Yes, I know it is a freak out no-no topic among the Lyme community, but you really need to outweigh the good and bad, and it can actually be life saving to those with conditions such as Addison’s, etc.

I wanted to look into this, as I know there are so many possible side effects, and I am learning that this is likely not a good option for me as I have Factor V Leiden. It can cause some extremely severe side effects even in a very short period of time. Surgery required bad things. Yup.

So I am continuing to get information together before my next appointment, and am wondering if we could make a case for the insurance that prednisone could possibly cause massive side effects.

Unfortunately, there is no way I can afford trying out the IVIG if it isn’t covered. I know also that it can kind of be a crap shoot. For some people it seems to be great, others it seems to do way more harm than good. If it is covered I think it would be worth trying.

We are going to run another blood test coming up that tests for more things that would maybe give a few clues to neurological issues that is more specialized than something Labcorp or similar companies offer.

A few new issues have come up. I usually haven’t dealt with a massive amount of pain for the most part with this disease as I am nearly all neurological, but my calves and back of my legs have been extremely swollen and excruciatingly painful.

They are not hot to the touch, but when they get like that, veins even begin to bulge out. Sexy I know. I have forced myself to use my bike a bit as maybe it is a circulation issue.

Underneath my jaw (maybe lymph node) has also become swollen. It reminds me of a frog when they puff out. You know what I am talking about, right? It is really painful and I am not sure what to do about it.

My throat isn’t sore, and although my lymph nodes on the side of my neck are swollen as they always are, they don’t appear to be quite as bad. Or maybe they don’t look that bad with this massive thing going on below my jaw. Haha.

Lately my head seems to have massive pressure… it doesn’t hurt at all but it literally feels like I can feel my brains being squished into my skull. Like my head is full. When this happens, I almost feel a giant wave come over me. I feel completely totally out of it, am oblivious to my surroundings and unaware. I can’t even talk. Nada. It passes quickly, as I said it is like a wave. Very bizarre. Maybe yet another type of seizure? I don’t know.

Even more nerve wracking, I am not sure what is going on with my eyes. All of a sudden, I can’t see. It lasts more than a few blinks, maybe 15 seconds or so? Just a guess. You don’t really keep track of time when you instantly lose your sight. It isn’t total blackness. It is beyond blurry, as I can’t see a friggin thing, like I am looking though the thickest piece of the type of glass that a shower has that you can’t see through, and a shade of grey.

I went to the eye doctors, and tis the season, I do have a tendency to have dry eyes in the winter and a little inflammation and thought maybe this was the case but there is nothing wrong with my eyes. My eye doctor doesn’t think I am crazy about Lyme and takes me pretty seriously, and really took the time with me to see if he could find anything that could be causing this issue. His only explanation is that it had to be neurological. Gah.

I did finally have my appointment with the sleep neurologist. The day before my appointment, there was a questionnaire for Dave to fill out, since he does see my sleep patterns and knows my sleep habits and lifestyle. He was out for the evening and of course I had to look at his answers. In a question about snoring and to describe this sleep behavior in more detail Dave’s response was, “More than 75% of the time loud snoring and other loud disgusting noises with her mouth.” Thanks hun.

Although she did call it, “Lymes” (pet peeve LOL), there was a little positivity, as I am actually having some testing done. I will be doing an overnight sleep study as well as a daytime one. I’ll call it a mini vacation?

Included in that will be an EEG, maybe there will be some sort of revelations in that as well. I just want some answers. Something isn’t right. And she agreed with me that something is going on. We just don’t know what.

She really believes that it very well could be narcolepsy as I fit right into the category or sleep apnea. She had mentioned a type of sleep apnea that is a little different, one that your brain basically tells you to stop breathing. Not like an airway sort of issue.

I had some pretty great accomplishments this past month. It sounds pretty lame for those who aren’t dealing with this all, but I am happy. It has been over two years since I walked in a Walmart. I walked all the way to the electronic section with Dave, and also the pet section to get our fur kiddos their food.

I didn’t get into a complete state of panic as I do in situations I know are going to be a struggle, my feet had no feeling, and I had to hold onto the cart to have some extra support.  The lights made me dizzy and I went into a complete fog. I made it though!

I had a day I went grocery shopping by myself, after 3 hours of work I should add, then continued on pushing myself to do some cleaning around the house. I really wanted to just lay down, but it was a huge boost mentally to do this.

In a few weeks I will be trying something called electro-magnetic therapy. It is supposed to help boost circulation and get rid of waste.  I haven’t done a lot of research on it, which is pretty surprising as you know I am the Google Queen, but for more information, it is called PEMF Therapy.

I am going to leave this on an uplifting note. It seems that this time of year is especially hard for the Lyme community, and we have lost too many people in the last several weeks.  It is heartbreaking.

I am exhausted and am mad and sad at what has been going on with me. I have kind of felt like I have been breaking down piece by piece in frustration. Why does everything have to not be cut and dry?

I do have days that I feel like an absolute rock star for getting some things done like like I have shared and not making a zillion rainchecks to Dave for him having to do everything.

But… that is doing the basics that I had once been able to do months ago. Even years ago. I am grateful to be doing anything at all as it is still an improvement from when I first started over 4 years ago. I will admit though, backtracking isn’t fun at all.

For every bad day I am really trying to go to bed with the mentality that tomorrow will be a brand new day. I will keep going, keep fighting. I really don’t have a choice. What is it that Dory says? “Keep on swimming?” Well, I guess I will do just that. Wishing you all a great day, and to continue being strong. We will get through this together.
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Can’t forget my Olive girl! Introducing Miss Olive Loo Who! Haha. She looks pretty pissed. Someone was not in the Christmas spirit.

3 thoughts on “December Part 1 – It’s Complicated

  1. Hello,

    I was just reading some of ur blog, and I think I might can offer a little help. I have been fighting this horrible disease for 11 years and I have 3 children and a husband that are also battling. I haven’t read all of your posts so if i write something that u r already doing or have done, sorry. 🙂 So, the thing i noticed the most was ur extreme fatigue. In 2013 around seven years after I became infected I begin falling asleep walking I did a sleep study and was diagnosed with idiopathic hypersomnia. Idiopathic means they don’t know why it happens but it’s a form of narcolepsy brought about by the Lyme disease and co-infections. My very first symptom was leg pain. I have had chronic leg pain for the last 11 years everyday all day. However some days my calves will hurt like I’ve been running or climbing stairs it’s all part of the line. You mentioned having something swollen under your job have you been tested for Epson bar? Were you tested for Bartonella Bebesia rickettsia anaplasma etc. Email me if you would like @ SQUEEKY1214@AOL.COM. take care 🙂

  2. Thank you for sharing. I have not fully read all of your forum. Things about the head are same i have nudging now in my spine ribs and back of skull deep in tissue. ELisa Spot and other tests revealed nothing in bloodwork. For certainty i pulled tick from my thigh 5 years ago symptom checking with what you have. Finally only now does my doctor believe that it is Lyme despite negative test results. Liver tests. Neuropath and other specialists. AT one time too told i was crazy go see a dietician as i had lost so much weight. Barely stand up some days worse. Floaters in both eyes feel like hot or extreme cold shaking and convulsions worse at night. Take courage i wait for prayers be your long endure to end with recovery no matter how challenging this may seem.

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